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it was an ordinary summer that year. my family went to the sea the day after school ended. it was our tradition. it felt ordinary. me, my sister, my parents, or at least we thought so.
a week before leaving the beach, to go back to our busy lives in the city, my parents dropped the bombed. although i wasn't born yet when the nuclear bomb fell on the sands of japan, it must have felt like this. a total shock. a wave of uncertainty. a mist of hurt. a death to happiness and a birth to death.
apparently my parents have decided to get a divorce. why?
a couple or reasons.
one. my dad was having an affair. with his best man. two. my mom was pregnant. with my first year algebra teacher, i guess he got all the x and Y's. three. they have never loved each other. ever.
how did all this happen without our knowledge?how did we end up blinded by hate?
one. my parents were really good at keeping secrets. apparently they've known each other's secret for a while now. about ten years while. two. we never bothered to look and every time we accidentally saw we turned our head to the other direction.why?because it didn't fit. three. it didn't fit. it didn't fit the life we knew. it wasn't right.
so where did this left us all. my parents, happy, singularly, in the arms of their rightful life partner, and us, band to see them until we're old enough to hate them. at least that was what our grandparents wanted.
the day my grandparents, from both sides, decided that we live in Tokyo with my father's parents was the hardest part of being in that situation. it wasn't the scandal or the talk. it was the thought that from this time until we are of legal age my sister needed to depend on me while i need to depend on what was left of me.
i walked the beach after the "big talk". i looked at the pain waiting for me somewhere in the horizon and walked straight to it.
i was near the horizon itself when i saw the most beautiful smile. it was in a red dress but i never saw the face only the smile it gave me in return as i lent it my pain.
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